Sunday..

Today was good for the most part...we ended up playing the PS2 Karokee..it was fun..
then Kristen Thompson brought dinner over..so i dished everyone up..we said prayer..then i scarfed down my meal while his brother todd fed jon..and then we switched..i fed jon and todd scarfed down his meal..it was then i realize just how HARD this is going to be..on all of us..not just me or jon but the girls as well..
becca just wanted to be on my hip the entire time..and if she wasnt then anna was..and if she wasnt then sarah was..
i talked to carisa about setting up some sort of system during the day that the younger two girls can go over to her house like if they were in preschool..to get them use to doing something like that..i think thats a great idea..she also talked to me about having someone come during the day to just help with the girls - so im going to work on that as well..
we got jon back to the hospital..and got him ready for bed..his pain was still at an 8..the pain management team was either coming in tonite or tomorrow..im guessing tomorrow...so we'll see what happens from there..
PLEASE pray that the pain management team will get his levels back to where they were on saturday..and pray for jons attitude and spirit to still be strong..and PLEASE pray that im able to find a caregiver for jon to be here..the girl i have i have SUCH difficulty getting ahold of her..im expecting her to come for training tomorrow..im SO worried!! its VERY hard trying to find a caregiver..ive looked online thru the press enterprise classifieds, the oc register classifieds, craigslist.org..website..the agencies want 150-200 for a 24 hour person..privately i can get someone for about 100 a day..its just trying to FIND someone privately that is my issue..150-200 a day is a LOT of money!! yikes!!
pray that everything falls into place for us..everything is so up in the air right now its a little nerve racking..i know that it will..it always does..we just have to go thru the craziness to appreciate heavenly fathers help when he gives it to us..
jons been really nervous that i wont stick around for him..hes nervous that i feel embarrassed to have him now as my husband..im so sad that he feels that way..im really surprised that he even has those thoughts! but he says..lying in bed day after day..you have LOTS of time to think about EVERYTHING..im definatly not leaving..its not an option for me..well i guess its always an option..but i married for eternity..and this life on earth is SUCH a small time compared to the big picture!! i love jon because jon is jon..he treats me like a queen..he's very loyal..my needs have always come before his needs..he respects me..he supports me..he encourages me to do good..he gives the BEST hugs..hes a gentle father..he's very intelligent..his eyes light up when he smiles..there are so many things i love about this man..i will never leave..never..