Mission Impossible...

I tried to mee jon at the urology center..only to find out that he NEVER got there!!! BUGGED!!! the transfer people didnt even show up- so frustrating!!! they "say" their next available is may 11th- but jons gone may 10th..so im not sure what will happen about that scan that was suppose to be done...
we then headed off to the theatres..they loaded jon and another man up into the transfer van..then me and the other girl (wife) followed them..we decided to see Mission Impossible 3..which was really good...
we then loaded back up and went to a small mexican place for "cinco de mayo"...it was pretty good..then loaded back up to get back here to the hospital...i have to say its REALLLLY hit me how hard this is going to be for me..as i was eating with jon...i had to scarf down my food intermittenly with cutting up and feeding jon his food and drink...AND giving him pressure releases..i thought how on earth am i going to do all this AND keep track of four girls?? we will just never be able as a family to go out to eat for a long while...like maybe when the girls are teenagers and can take care of themselves!!! anyway - it just really made me think about what's really going to happen once he gets home...
Im still again looking for a 24 hour person to help me..i would like someone for atleast a week that can do 24 hours..or someone that can do a 12 hour and someone else that can do another 12 hour..if ANYONE knows of ANYONE or can help me out on this PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE contact me..that is my BIGGEST need right now is to find someone that can be here at the home doing everything with jon..
for the most part..jons pain has stayed to a 7 or an 8...he's resting now..ill soon be leaving..i just fed him his dinner..i need to get back home to my girls who i havent really seen since yesterday..and it was yesterday night...came home to put them to bed..that is really NO life that i want..i feel bad for all the dads out there that come home to see their kids go to bed...no wonder jon wanted to stay home more!!! when he was working in santa monica..he only say them for 30 minutes in the morning..then came home to a sleeping house..im grateful i have a husband who took being a father very seriously..and wanted to change..
tomorrow my aunt and uncle will stay with jon during the day while i stay at home with the 4 girls..they are DYING to "just stay home" and not have to be carted off somewhere..then Sunday jon will get to come home for about 3 hours...if he's up to it..