jon makes it to the LDS.org website..

So jons newspaper article made it to the LDS.org website under news..pretty cool!
Jon had a good day today - THANKS robert for helping him!!! Scott will be here tomorrow..then sandra on friday..
i believe he got a good amount of work done..jon would read from one computer screen and robert had it hooked up that he would type from his screen so jon could see it on jons screen - if that made sense- anyway - if your techy - its way cool!!
teresa brought over dinner and her family came in and said hello to jon..we sat around the table and ate our dinner..again jon ate all his meal by himself..it was SOOO touchign to see sarah helping dad sip thru a straw his apple juice..i kept turning away cuz i just wanted to cry - it was just soo sweet!
then holly came..the evening nurse..and she gave him a pressure release while we all watched american idol show from last nite- it was SO nice to feel sort of normal!! then she helped im get ready for the night..SO nice that i can take a break and come on the computer and help to get girls into bed..im SOOOOO thankful for melanie and elizabeth to help me!!! they have NO IDEA how much they truly are helping me!!! soon we'll hopefully have someone that can do everything on their own without my help so i can focus on helping the girls get ready for bed...
i feel much more positive today..jon says he's in some pain..i hope its not growing..atleast we have a dr's appt with the pain management team on friday at 4pm..
so today i called the home health company in a controlled upset manner of which im pretty good at and so now they are coming tomorrow at 930-- i tell you you REALLY have to be on top of things or nobody would show up!! i knew from the get go i wasnt going to be happy with home health care..i want to get him over to outpatient rehab as soon as i can...jon hasnt used ANY of his muscles since he left last week - thats not good for the body! anyway- i had to "roll some heads" to get things going..i had to laugh because on the front of the home health care's folder it said something alone the lines of "if you're not getting quality home care- please call" so i did!!

its wierd for me to go do "normal things" like i went to ralphs to pick up a prescription that cost me 77 JUST for the copay on it..crazy..anyway..i was walking around kind of in a daze..i feel like that life is SOOOO far removed from me now..just to be in the car by myself is sooo far removed from me now...i cant EVEN imagine driving down to OC to visit with family ...something we did SOOOO very often..and now..its just different..anyway- its hard for me to explain how i feel..oh and no worries..im going to go see a counselor thru LDS social services..i dont want any of you to worry..im taking steps to work thru this..i definately go thru "i can work thru this" to "this is rough" to "im mad" to everything really..but what i DO know is that Satan knows how to work my heart, feelings and thoughts..having that kind of knowledge and knowing that the Savior and his Atonement can bring me peace and happiness..thats such TRUE knowledge to the VERY deepest core..im so grateful i was raised in the church and that it teaches how peace of heart and mind can come thru the Atonement..what a blessing..

im so very grateful for my family and friends that are helping us thru this..im so thankful for all my friends that always call me first before they head to the store..for the emails i receive..for the cards..donations to the fund..help with the girls every morning..doing laundry..bringing over supplies..everything..were so grateful..
jon is such a wonderful being..it hurts me inside that he is going thru this..i know week by week he's doing so much better then before..but on a daily basis and as the wife..you tend to see WAY more suffering then others see..and sometimes thats hard..

were REALLLLLY excited to get back to church on Sunday!! this is the LONGEST ive ever not gone to church - it will be wonderful to be back in the building we attend with all those wonderful people..i hope i dont just cry my head off though!?!?! yikes!! of course now we have a REAL reason to be sitting in the back row like we always use to..(we call it the "outer darkenss" row)..it will just be so great!

keep the prayers going -- jon can truly feel them..we all can..i REALLY now understand how this is such a day by day process..im really learning to love other people because of their service towards my family..in church when people would stand and say "i love all of you" i tend to dismiss it..but now that im going thru this and have witness the Lords hand in the lives that are changing and the lives that are blessing us right now..i can now TRULY say "i love all of you"..i can now understand how Heavenly Father loves ALLLLL of his children..each and everyone..its so amazing how when were involved in service and the Lords work..how all the negativity about someone and something diminishes so quickly and the good is so ripe and pure..i just love that..you can start to witness the spirit in peoples eyes as they come in and out of my home filled with a longing to help me and my family..how blessed i am to be ecompassed in that kind of precious great love..just wonderful!