Blessing..

I left jon..sadly in horrible pain..i was rubbing his chest encouraging him to ask for a priesthood blessing..he said that he wants one and then he said "im so sorry honey, but your hand is KILLING me"...to not be able to even touch him- now THAT is SOOO hard to handle...you can just LOOk at him and SEE the pain with your own eyes..his face is red, tense, his eyes are like a filmy glossy look to them..it just hurts to do anything...

I cant seem to figure it out, we've been cathing him, he has no urinary tract infection, his bowels are working properly...none of those things are making the pain worse...i just dont get it..im thinking its a matter of finding the right combination of drugs that will work with his body...

He received a blessing while i was gone to katie's bridal shower...Kim said that he felt better after that and they got his program done, and washed and ready for the evening..im SOOOO grateful for kims help!!! THANKS KIM!!

I hope he's able to sleep still tonite..he did a LOT of sleeping today-i hope i can get some sleep too...

I think im still in mourning of losing the "old jon"...the "pain free -full of life" jon..its so sad but so true...i hope that you all kiss your spouses and loved ones and appreciate how pain free and full of life they are...we cant take those kinds of things for granted anymore...it REALLY is like the plan..coming to earth to appreciate the opposites of things..we dont REALLY appreciate the good until we've seen and felt the bad...im comforted to know that my Heavenly Father loves me SOOO much...HE knows what its like to watch the one you love suffer...how thankful i am to pray to Him and feel His love and undestanding..that brings me peace and hope at this dark hour..