Friday went well..

Friday went good..of course i was exhausted again but got up and got things going..i waited for sandra to come so i could leave with the girls for "mommy date time"..i told them i would take them to the movies..rachel asked if she could speak to me privately..so we went into the bathroom and locked the door..she quietly said "mom i want to say something but i dont want to hurt your feelings.." i thougth OH NO!! im scared!! then she said "i was hoping we could do something else instead of the movies?" WHEW!! i asked her what she wanted to do instead..she said go to the mall..i thought THE MALL!??!?! she's only 9!! i thought this thing doesnt start for a few more years!! so i asked her what stores she wanted to go to at the mall? she said "that really cool candy store!" YES she's still herself and not creeping up to the pre teen years yet!! WOOO HOO!! I told her we'd visit the candy store- look around-and then hit the movies at the mall- perfect she said..
I then RUSHED home to help jon and get him loaded for the party for him..we got there and had great food and good friends- we played our usual "animal game"..SO FUN! we played that one game for about 2 hours!! everyone loved hanging with jon and doing what we use to do..we got home about 1130 and i got jon into bed for the nite..
THEN at about 145am i started feeling like i needed to throw up - the WORST feeling ever! i tried to think of what i ate..i didnt really eat much at the party because i had a mexican pizza from taco bell - and a bag of popcorn at the movies..so i only had a few chips and salsa and then a little bit of dessert..but ohhhh i really wanted to just throw up- so i basically slept in the bathroom WAITING for somethign to happen..it was pretty miserable..i knew at 4am i'd have to go down and do my thing with jon..so at 330 i went down so that i wouldnt throw up all over him..got him taken care of- wore gloves the WHOLE time and then back upstairs i went..next to the bathroom again..by 5pm i said well i cant get myself to throw up so im just gonna have to try to go to sleep..and i slept from 5-8am when the girls got up and goign for their day..i walked into the bathroom and locked the door- still feeling not myself..i didnt want becca to be clingy with me..sarah was so nicely CLEANING and DUSTING my room!! she knocked on my door..but i didnt want to answer for fear of becca finding out i was in there..so i said nothing..then she came downstairs to tell dad i wasnt in my room and the bathroom door is locked and mommy's not saying anything --jon got SOO nervous and told her to go up there and say..if you dont answer mom..dads nervous and going to call 911! i said oh im here im here!!! im okay!! just tryign to hide from becca!!! SORRY!! so she came down and told him..jon didnt like being so helpless like that... i cant imagine..he had thoughts that i threw up and choked or passed out from last nite!
anyway- all was well..i feel better this morning..im not sure what the deal was..im physically just exhausted..these 2 weeks are probably just catching up to me..

Jon is doing well..he's working on his presentation..i forgot to mention that for a few weeks now he's been eating dinner at the table with us using his own fork in his gloves and feeding himself- its been wonderful to feel like a family at dinner time!! he has his neck brace off- and everyone keeps saying how healthy he looks WITHOUT the brace on - its like jon again..

well im going to go try to catch some shut eye for a few minutes while the girls are all still with celesta at the bday party of our friend..thanks for your prayers! i feel like my girls are getting prayed for because they have REALLY stepped up on SO MANY levels and helped me more then i thought they would- im so terribly grateful for them!!!