ugh- thats all i can say write now...

its now 1130pm..i JUST got back from the hospital..i arrived at 8pm and talked to the doctor about jons condition...seems like the bowels are working and thats being relieved..he scheduled jon to have an MRI taken tomorrow to rule anything out - so far the xray's have been good- so we'll see what if anything the MRI shows...
at 8pm they had given jon 2 vicadin, 2 colace, 1 antibiotic for the UTI, and 1 pepcid...he HATES having to take pills like that!!!
then i helped to bathe him and dress him for the night..by 10pm he said his pain was STILL at an 8 out of 10..we just cant figure this thing out!! so we called the charge nurse in and she then called the doctor who had him take 2 MORE vicadin along with his 2 Resterol (sleeping pills)..so at 1030pm he took 4 MORE pills - seriously he's not happy about taking so many pills - especially those big horse pills!!
i said companion prayer quietly with him ..and he then fell asleep by 11pm...
he told me "ya know when i first got here i had NO pain and took NOTHING..then i had a little pain so i took a couple tylenol..then i had MORE pain so i took a couple vicadin..now im having MORE pain still and there having me take HOW MUCH vicadin!?!?!" were really concerned about this pain his in..which we believe after some research is called "nueropathic pain"..he has burning like a 1st degree burn INSIDE his body at the triceps, the upper chest down thru his abdomen, under both thighs and on top both shins..he said its NOT the skin..its in the body..and it comes in waves...when he dozes off..it subsides a bit..but when he comes to its full throddle serious pain..you just watch him whince when it happens..
im going to go online and do some more research..he's having that MRI tomorrow morning..they will have to get an ambulance over to transfer him across and down the street to get that done..
we so desperatly need serious prayers right now..he said its just about taking him over mentally..could you imagine burning like that and not being able to MOVE at all!??! when i talked to the charge nurse a few days ago - she said.."you know that is THEE worst pain ever..its worse then ANYTHING else..that burning pain he's having..and nobody can know what that is like unless you've had it.." i feel so bad for jon..because i dont even know what the pain feels like..i cant even begin to imagine..
please pray that this bowel issue is complete..and that this burning pain will subside..and that if it is indeed part of the healing process..that it happens quickly..i cant watch him suffer like this anymore..its killing me to my very core..
i have to keep "remembering" the blessings that were given..the way i felt after i FIRST prayed after i heard of his accident.. i have to keep remembering to go thru this time with a "celestial" frame of mind..thats the only thing that's helping to bring peace to me..
im SO grateful i have this knowledge..and that i can use these things to help me right now...that im not crawling into my bed and not wanting to get out and face the day..that im not having to be on any medication to help me cope..that im leaning on my Heavenly Father right now..i turn towards my patriartichal blessing that states simply.."You are his." i find DEEP comfort in this..
please everyone help my sweet jon...its time as he always says "bless your heart"..its time to "bless his heart"....