MRI done...not so good night for me...

Jon left for the MRI at 730pm...he didnt arrive back until 930pm...he did SO much waiting around..then they had put him inside to do the MRI..and had to pull him out because a baby needed to go in..then they did the baby but had to do the baby again..so jon waited 45 minutes before it was even his turn again...
he arrived back and was trembling terribly..he was in a severe amount of pain..it was at an 8/10...he took some new medication that is stronger then vicadin..and the new medication to hopefully treat this nueropathic pain..called nueroten (SP?)..he was just shaking everywhere..he didnt even want to move anything..he took those pills at 10pm..at 1030pm his pain level was up to 9..it was really severe..his face was all red..he felt so hot to me..it was just too painful to watch..
he said the "burning it just everywhere - its too much!"...he said he feels the burn in his triceps, forearms..he says his stomach is just on fire..his thighs, his shins...he said the fire like every little tiny nerve on fire..then he feels like his sitting in an oven while the burning inside his body is going on..and then he feels like at the same time he's taking a very cold shower..all of that happening at once..
were so frustrated! it seems each night the pain level gets worse..the pain doses get higher and stronger..but the next night its worse again and the pain doses get higher and stronger since they aren't doing anything...
we had companion pray and i specifically asked and im BEGGING ALL OF YOU to pray that if there is something on that MRI - that the doctors will see it..that it will be shown unto them the problem..if the MRI is clear..that they will be able to stabalize this pain he is in and get it under control..he cannot heal his body if he continues to be in such pain like this..
at 11pm..he said his pain was down to a 6...his sleeping pills were slowly kicking in as well..i hope he gets some sleep tonite..robert will be there in the morning for the day..he will also give him a priesthood blessing...we are told to "weary the Lord with our prayers" we are certainly doing so - i ask that all of you do the same..i cant handle watching him go thru this...watching him reminded me of Jesus suffering..he not ONLY suffered for our sins..but he suffered every physical and emotional pain..he suffered JUST AS jon is now..he truly does know how jon feels right now..he's the only one..nobody else...
i got in my car and called jons dad..i updated jons condition for him..then about half way home i just completely lost it..i completely broke down..it was too much pressure...seeing him suffering each night get worse and worse..its too much to bare...i ask myself "what lesson am i to learn by watching jon suffer so much?" this is something i will struggle to find an answer too..but will in time FIND an answer too..i also ask "why is jon who lived such a righteous life and never did anything wrong going thru this?" ..in time i WILL be able to answer that question...
i managed to make it to amy's house and celesta got in my car and talked with me..she reminded me of what an honor it is that Jon is going thru this..that Heavenly Father knew his capabilites..and that we are changing people's lives..only we are the ones suffering right now..me and jon...and thats hard for me to watch jon suffer..but if i keep an eternal perspective..who else suffered so that we can draw closer to Heavenly Father..Jesus did...what an honor for jon to be in such a position to make other people's testimonies stronger..or others to think about Heavenly Father and to rethink things..and to find out for themselves about this thing we call life..
jons cousin kim loveridge is married to john bytheway..he wrote a book about trials..and in his book he talks about how Heavenly Father knows our capabilities but we have trials to prove to OURSELVES our capabilities...that really struck a cord with me..it reminded me of jons comments or thoughts he had the day of his accident..he said "that we all say that we have "character" and that it isnt until we have a trial and put that "character" into motion that we can THEN decide and truly say "we have character"...
i managed to make it home after some time with celesta..im sorry to carissa snow who was here till well after midnight! im really so sorry carissa!! but thank you!!!
im thankful i went and talked to somebody and then im able to write all this out..i will sleep SO much better now...
this whole thing hadn't been that bad..i broke down when things first started settling in my mind and i had called my mom..way in the beginning..then after that call i broke down in the hospital bathroom..since then..ive been okay..but watching him get worse each night and visibly see him suffering..i had reached the limit..
i find comfort in my patriartichal blessing that states "He rejoices with you in your happiness. He sorrows with you in times of sorrow and sadness." this brings so much comfort to me to know he's aware of even little me..
everyone again im begging you that we find something in the MRI or that we are able to stabalize and find the source of his pain..i just dont understand how he could go from not having ANY pain medication to having so much and his body getting worse pain wise..so please..help us to help the doctors find the reasons..i know he will get better..its going to take our united faith to make it happen..it will happen!