better sleep last night

talked to jon this morning..he had better sleep last night..he took the 2 sleeping pills again..he slept pretty solid for 5 hours..im so grateful!!
i put our home phone on speaker next to the tv so he could atleast hear the Prophet speak this morning..we laughed when pres. hinckely said "ive been in a hospital and i dont recommend it to anyone!" poor jon!!!
i just cant WAIT till jon gets home... i hope ALLLL of you that are able will be at our doorstep the day he arrives...so that he can have a FULL effect and see just how many people's lives he has impacted! you realize how important it is to be kind, gentle, loving, patient, all those things in your life..because one day you MIGHT just need someone to return the favor and be all of those things to you..
in the same breath that im excited to get him home..im TERRIFIED at all the changes, and what i will have to go thru...i feel like THAT'S when the REAL trial will begin -atleast for me maybe!! im so scared that i wont do everything right, that i wont be able to balance everything out, that our relationship might suffer, so many things im afraid of...but i guess its just important to take it one day at a time and realize the COUNTLESS number of people willing to help us through this..this is something i NEVER EVER EVER thought would have happened to us! EVER!
earlier this am...i walked into our bedroom walk in closet..and i noticed 2 white towels at the top...one towel is the one rachel used after she was baptized last year at age 8...and the other white towel is the one i have ONLY for jon to use for each time he baptized his 4 daughters..i realized that sarah would be next..she's 6 now...i PRAY that jon will be able to baptize her!!! i had a good cry...
well its 1230...im one my way to be with jon for the day...im happy its finally sunny outside...i dislike rain!! but it makes everything so nice after...hopefully like our trial...