thursday

today was tiring for jon...but atleast he slept well!! his mom is with him tonite..russell santos helped in the morning then kristen thompson took over after till i came back around 530pm..he was doing good..just resting...
jon felt like he's not progressing fast enough..poor guy! he really is though!! i pressed on his thigh and he WAS able to feel that now too!! then i did more of his stomach area and he COULD feel the right side, middle and left side!!! its really working! he's feeling more and more!!!
the doctor had come in and we talked to him about our concern regarding spinal shock..the doctor tapped his left knee and jon could feel that all the way up his spine..and the doctor said your not in spinal shock anymore..so im going online to research that more..so that was encouraging to us!
i wanted to take a minute and thank the COUNTLESS people that are reading the blog here- and their geniune concern for jon and our family at this time of our lives...i have been hearing about people i dont even know praying for us!!! we called some friends from the bay area (matt and jp - you guys rock!!)and they informed us that some churches in Arkansas were even praying for us! and that we were on their prayer rolls!! how neat is that!!! they joked that they hoped it wasn't considered "spam mail" for God - we had a good chuckle!!! we truly can feel everyones real prayers and concern for our family..jon REALLY is progressing...
earlier today on my drive home this morning..i was thinking about life..and i thought man ..how am i going to even do church!?!?! i guess wheel him in..and keep a reign on the other 4 girls..jon was SO helpful with that - helping to keep them quiet..take one out if needed...then i got to thinking about ALL the many things i will for a time be doing all by myself...house stuff, mom stuff, wife stuff, outside house stuff, church thing, our business stuff, remembering to take an extra hour to get him ready BEFORE i can even start to do anything else that needed to be done..then i remembered a part in my patriartichal blessing that says "you will not be overcome or overwhelmed by the things that transpire"...thats why i can only do this trial one day at a time..its hard to think of the "future" simply because i dont even KNOW what the future will be!!! its hard to wrap my mind around that...
its also been SUPER hard to go anywhere because ALL of the magazines have had christopher reeves and dana reeves on the cover..EVERY time i see a mag..i start bawling and totally lose it..im sure the cash register people are worried!! i think to myself..man i hope i come close to the way dana was..she's truly an inspiration..
i often hear people say "what can i do"..the most comforting and MOST powerful thing that has truly helped us..is for you to become closer to the Savior, to feel his love, and to know that it truly is our HF's love and Jesus Christ's love that is comforting you- that SAME comfort you feel..is the SAME comfort we feel..its very tender..very simple..and very real..i had someone email me today whom i have never met that said because of MY trial..she is changing things in HER life..that is SO beautiful to me! she says that she has started to do things differently at home, treats her children differently, kisses her husband before work and when he comes home, and that she does more service for her ward that she lives in...that everyone, ESPECIALLY the youth and children, who is wondering "what can i do" is what gives jon and i encouragement to keep going..that is what makes our trial worth every minute that we endure...we thank you for the changes you have made or have considered making by enduring this trial with us-